A Review By: Amelia
Any veteran readers of this blog know that I love reading
the most salacious autobiographies I can find. Jenna Jameson’s porn star epic How To Make Love Like A Porn Star, The Last Living Slut about a legendary
Iranian groupie, Party Monster for
crazy club kids, Mommie Dearest about
the abuse Joan Crawford put her adopted kids through–it’s all just so
fascinating! It’s actually surprising I didn’t get around to Underneath It All by Traci Lords sooner!
Traci Lords, born Nora Kuzma, was a girl that developed
early and suffered years of sexual abuse because of it. Older men took
advantage of her, the time period was rife with cheap and easy drugs, and in
her young mind, she was the one at fault, she deserved all the bad things that
happened to her. Hence began her slid into pornography where she filmed twenty
hardcore films all before her eighteenth birthday.
Lords was born in Steubenville Ohio to two parents who, in
very different ways, were abusive. Her mother was more concerned with herself
than her four young daughters while her father was a heaving drinker who was
loose with his fists and hurtful words to try and keep the women in his life in
order. She lost contact with her father when her mother and her boyfriend Roger
moved the four girls to California but soon Roger took over as resident male
abuser by harassing the young Lords in her sleep and then encouraging her to
become a nude model at age fifteen. From there on, Lords life took a downward
spiral of drugs, booze, abusive relationships, porn, and self-loathing.
Lords in Cry-Baby |
After being arrested for her child porn days, Lords decided
to turn her life around and become an actual actress. The going was rough as
the porn industry and media continued to harass and producers in actual
Hollywood didn’t want the stigma of having an ex-porn girl in their
productions. Her break didn’t come until she was cast in the teenage comedy Cry-Baby. After that she was able to
slowly build up her legitimate acting resume with more small movie parts and
television series. She even had a music career with a techno-dance album and a
couple of tours as a DJ.
It was a long and very difficult road for Lords to separate
herself from her porn days but she was able to. It took years and years of hard
work and devastating rejections, but she pulled herself out of the stigma that
so many porn stars find themselves in. Her story is honest to a brutal degree
about her history and thoughts and feelings and her look into the porn world
(and what lies after it) is a completely unglamorous one that a lot of other
people don’t tend to go into.
My final thoughts on Underneath
It All are that it’s a good read. It’s not the best autobiography I’ve ever
read in terms of scandalous details (Jenna Jameson’s set too high a bar for
crazy porn lifestyles) but Lords prose is pretty and it’s clear she’s an
intelligent woman. It’s an interesting memoir and definitely worth checking out
to see Lords side of the events that went down in her very public, very
shocking life.